I'm feel abandoned. I have countless unanswered prayers. Help strengthen my marriage, give me strength to resist the chocolate, make my baby healthy, help my husband get a job, help me get a job, help my in laws, give my peace... And that's just today's. I always say please and always list what I'm thankful for. But still no answers. No communication. Nothing.
I've lost faith. My once strong faith.
Crisis of faith? Difficult season? Season of doubt? Call it what you want. It sucks. Is god mad? Do I not pray hard enough? Do I sin too much? Did I do something wrong? Am I not doing enough right?
I find comfort in knowing Mother Teresa doubted for most of her life.
I am doubting. I am tired. I need help.